So it's happening again... I'm going back to Ibiza, except this time it's a little earlier than I'd started to grow accustomed to. The reason being I've got some work tiding me over with a lovely family working on their house doing some renovation. Nothing complicated, just "lifty pully" stuff, with a bit of "hammery mixy" thrown in for good measure. Unless something which I am yet to foresee occurs, I should be in Ibiza until some time around November, so I'm sure I'll find lots of fun things to tell everyone about.
Seeing as how I should have done this for the last two summers, I'm fully aware that I'm more than likely to have had two action packed adrenaline-fuelled summers where I could and should have noted down all kinds of high jinks for the benefit of posterity. Alas, I did not, so undoubtedly you're in for treats such as "Thursday is jacket potato day" and other exciting stuff like this!
I'm also going to be trying to talk about things close to my heart a lot more freely than I have done in the past. I've always struggled opening up, so what better way to do it than shouting on the internet. There's other ways, you say? Nope, not interested. Found one now, so here goes.
Since I've been home, it's been really, really nice to see everyone I know and love again (well, almost everyone I know and love, they're starting to spread themselves more thinly on the ground), but the lack of work and a place of my own has really started to grind. I'm not happy twiddling my thumbs, and no matter what I've been doing, I've been restless. Having no money is no problem. It's annoying, but I can deal with that. Having no money and all the time in the world? That's a different monster.
It's possible that the culmination of two summers spent in Ibiza with a lot of time to think in the evenings, and now two months of doing a great deal of nothing left me reflecting on how I've changed, what I've been doing, what I am doing, and what I need to do. I feel I've slowly started to change as a person from the inside out. I like how I am with people, to about 95%. The other 5% is not even what I'd like people to see, I think it's purely been what I felt I wasn't comfortable revealing to people. I am making a conceited effort in 2011, to be more open and honest with my feelings and desires. So far, I've gone to a few places it had never occurred to me to visit before, and the results have been... well... more than encouraging. If that's cryptic, screw it, I've been open enough considering it's only just day 12 in my year of discovery!
So yeah, new things, new conversations, new places. Going all right so far, innit!
